Monday, January 14, 2013

Joyful Pain

Lying in bed, sick to the stomache, mind racing over possibilites...joy or pain? Both possibilities are equally terrifying.  Since the surgery, I have been put on more pills than i can count, some side effects leading me to near insanity. Currently,  Im on anti psychotics, anti convulsants, and meds to help with my mirgaine pain and prevention. How could i ever have a child grow in that environment? Is it too late? Has it happened, in spite of all the precautions taken?

Im drowning, bobbing up and down in a sea of worry. Rescue me father. Will this pain turn to the greatest joy ive ever felt?

2 comments:

  1. I just want to say I enjoy reading your blog!
    Just a word of encouragement:
    Therefore humble yourselves under the mighty hand of God, that He may exalt you at the proper time, casting all your anxiety on Him, BECAUSE HE CARES FOR YOU!
    1 Peter5:6-7

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  2. Thank you very much. I appreciate it :)

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